Daily Notes #5 "That Guy"

Tbh I'm not familiar with romantic type of love, well I just quite closed to guy and rarely attract to them. He was my ex, well my parents doesn't knew it they just know him as my friend. So ya after we go to our own path we still contact each. We hang out and chill sometimes we speak about our own interest weirdly I feel calm when speak to him, but I don't feel "butterflies" anymore or I don't think I'm ever feel that way. It's weird kinda feel but I don't feel we can be what we used to be. But I feel he more mature than before his conditions get better and his family too. I'm very relieved but I feel kinda envy, how wicked. I'm want to keep him that's strange, I feel that I used him, sorry.